This new year started off right. Had the pleasure of playing with two very hot guys, seperately not together…DAMN…anyhow, made the night fun and stress free.  Seems to me that since the beginning of the new year sexual situations seem to have improved greatly. I am sure its an upswing in things, but generally speaking I am spending less time at clubs and more time in one on one situations.

I hope that this process continues though. It is my hope to be in a serious relationship some day again, regardless of the other stuff I put out there here, I am in that mind set for the long term. We live in a reality though and until that time comes I am who I am, matter of fact even when that time comes I am what I am. That is the whole thing, that I cannot settle in with another person if doing so means I have to be someone that I am not. 

There is without a doubt that you have to reach out in some manner of compromise to bring together two different spirits. That is expected, but one should not disappear to make two, the ultimate two should include  fair share of both ones. now say that 10 times fast with me and then ….

So what about sex, damn there has been some crazy sex. Aside from New Years, the beginning of the year has started off great. I have met a couple new guys local here that love being taken care of. Neither of them seems 100% used to having someone do so, the best kind. Especially when someone is younger, when they end up with some very good experiences they can then go on to expect those from others in the long run. This ultimately and going forward improves everyones setup…think it through.

I met one guy in particular that I am finding myself ever so smitten of. Lets call him A. We met through growlr, and initially going to hang and fuck. I thought that it would be a quick and dirty. He ended up spending 5 hours here, fucking and sucking and kissing and massages, and talking, and eating. We hit is off nicely, and we are seeing each other tomorrow again. I am hoping that is goes well, but forcing myself to not race down a road not ready for. I know that this guy wants more than an open thing in the future, he want exclusive. I am not sure I can go there yet, with anyone. I rule nothing out though, there will be no more of this sort of thing. We live with success and or failure but we must live. 

more to come